Thursday, January 31, 2008
haiz... supposely is a happy dae to be enjoy... end up turning all emo n screwing everything up.... sorry every1 if my emo-ness somewat affect u....
ok... 2dae had last paper, chemcial engineering principle.. was ok la... i come out quite happy somehow...
after tat had lunch at FC4 reluctanly after tat me n some other peeps take wei sheng car to orchard to meet others coming....
when we reach there for awhile, call them n jus finish eating lunch at bouna vista n abt to go orchard...
ok... i start emo or rather somewat pissed off there (no offence to tat grp of people) cos this stupid attitube is JUS like those stupid 4e1 people la... when ask them wan to do wat, dun gif comment... gif them suggestion, sae anything.... well if intially u all dun wan eat FC4 y still sae anything, den we eat liao den abt to go other place den go other place eat... is like those so stupid freako in 4e1.... no offence to those people i somewat pissed off of n those 4e1 peeps who is more "on"....
den after tat start walking around den start to emo... those sian sian feeling again.... been thinking abt alots of things.... almost feeling like crying out loud ba... den keep sian sian for almost the whole few hr...
after tat, some went watch movie, some went home, den me wei sheng n wee seng walk around heren... didn really saw slippers i fancy... saw yong hui n his friend anyway...
den start walk around wif them... reach taka n had some ice cream... felt abit better but still not veri gd... den walk around wif them till around 7 plus den went home...
the past 2 weeks or so jus felt veri emo cos i tink i seriously veri friendless... not really friendless la but jus when wan find friend come out like cannot find any1....
esp like now tinking back like it already been a long while i go out wif my sec friend ba... i jus dunno.... like to sl, cs, it like didn really contact them le, everytime see them online, i oso dunno wat to tok to them...
as for anne, it like really a long long time really never go out together le... it seem like since u break off wif guy D, we like didn go out le... den everytime tok on msn cannot like last time last tat long n didn tok tat much le... (i seriously miss being a lightbulb no matter what.... mayb tat when we really tok n go out often... n it seem a little late, thank for ur christmas card)
in short, i jus feel veri friendless somewat.... i seriously like lost contact wif them somehow...
as for my poly mates, i totally don rmb whether there is time when we tok on msn is other than sch work related stuff le... is like to my 1st yr tat gang, it like knowing so long le but didn really tok much to them leh.... i jus felt somewat no close friend in poly ma....
haha.... guess tat y i so emo...
ok another reason i so emo is i been tinking wat i had acomplish the past 18 yr i can proud of or happy abt... seriously i dun tink there is...
jus read tsubasa chronicles online n got 1 thing i tink quite true ba...
All happiness n unhappiness exist because there are wishes... but exactly because of this, people keep wishing
well, my emo-ness most probably i hav too much wishes
-i wish i can maintain better friendship wif my sec friends
-i wish i can had close friendship wif my poly mates
-i wish i can find meanings of life, aim n all
(is tat really so hard to fufil??)
mayb i jus too annoying to people
anyway, really wan to thank wei sheng 2dae for trying to cheering me up the whole dae n treating me.... i really veri appreciate it n at least i noe got people care abt me....
k la... dun tink i got anymore add-ons le... jus like tat ba...
happy happy holidae, lonely lonely holidae...
